Tuesday, 27 August 2013

Been busy..

Hey Gracie





Just checking in and letting you know what's been happening recently.

I was lucky enough to be asked to take some photographs at Oxford University recently and I had a great time. The city of Oxford is beautiful and the buildings are amazing.( I have included a few pictures I took to show you) You might like it when you're a
bit older, you might even go there to study if you find that you want to be an academic.

A friend of mine is the president of a school that teaches Astrology and so I took pictures of the beautiful surroundings as well as the lovely students that had come from all over the globe to listen to some of the most experienced and knowledgeable Astrologers in the world.

I have a real interest in this subject and I made sure that I noted the time you were born so you could get an accurate birth chart reading if you became interested as you grow.

It was 3.23pm on 26/12/2007 when you came into the world and I actually filmed it! I haven't watched it for a long time but I imagine it would be an amazing experience for you to watch it one day.

My time and date of birth is 4.20 am 7.3.1973.

Here's your birth chart and the overview of the planets in the houses.

I hope you find this subject as fascinating and interesting as I do.






Name: grace cater oneill 
December 26 2007 
3:23 PM Time Zone is UT 
Whitehaven, UK 

Rising Sign is in 29 Degrees Gemini 
Extremely active by nature, you like to get around, meet people and do different things. Very restless, you just can't seem to stay put. You need to be involved in several projects at once in order to keep your mind stimulated. You like to read books and to write letters and to talk -- constantly. Seemingly ageless, you will always appear to be much younger than you really are. Very adaptable and inquisitive, you are always open to new ideas and experiences. A "jack-of-all-trades", you are lively and versatile. Because of the high nervous tension that you always seem to have, athletic activity would be a good way for you to burn off energy. But be careful of a tendency to experience things only superficially -- try to dig in and absorb things at a deeper level. 

Sun is in 04 Degrees Capricorn. 
Extremely serious and mature, you are capable of accepting responsibilities and do so willingly. Others expect you to be dutiful as a matter of course. You tend to get angry when people get rewards after not having worked anywhere near as hard as you. You are goal-oriented and an achiever by nature -- you're a hard worker and are justifiably proud of the tangible results of your efforts. You tend to have "tunnel-vision" -- this allows you to block out extraneous matters that might distract others and to concentrate totally on the matter at hand. As such, you are the ideal one to manage or administrate any ongoing project and to be practical and efficient at it. You are not a fast worker, but you are quite thorough. You are known for being totally persistent, tenacious and tireless in reaching your goals. 

Moon is in 09 Degrees Leo. 
You always want to be proud of yourself and will never do anything that will make yourself look bad. You need the respect and admiration of others and enjoy attracting attention to yourself. Everything you do tends to be self-emphasized and self-exaggerated. Very stubborn, willful and independent yourself, be sure to allow others who are close to you the similar right to "be themselves." Your need for love, affection and reassurance, and your tendency toward vanity, allow you to have your head easily turned by flattery. The more insecure you are, the more you tend to be a showoff. You love games and sports as a matter of fact, you would usually rather play than work. Be careful of a tendency to be snobbish and uppity -- it does not become you. 

Mercury is in 09 Degrees Capricorn. 
You are a careful thinker, very cautious and conservative. You are quite skillful at organizing, directing and planning activities. Practical and useful things interest you -- you are not attracted to abstract thoughts or ideas. With your tendency to be highly focused and very goal-oriented, you have a good head for business. But beware of a tendency to be narrow-minded and dogmatic. Your sense of humor tends toward being earthy and slapstick crude. 

Venus is in 25 Degrees Scorpio. 
Your feelings about others are deep, powerful, intense and complex. When you like someone, you do so totally and obsessively if you do not like someone, they do not exist. Your faithfulness and loyalty to your lover is unquestioned, indeed at times it is too much so -- you get so possessive that you almost smother your partner. At times, your feelings are kept deep within you and, because they are so complex and intense, they frighten you -- this is the way that you try to ignore them. But the more you try to do this, the more explosive things get when you eventually do express them. 

Mars is in 01 Degrees Cancer. 
Your moods are very important to your overall well-being. You are confident and self-assertive when you are feeling upbeat, and you are retiring, irritable and grumpy when you get depressed about anything. Very sensitive, you wear your heart on your sleeve. You are easily angered whenever you think someone has slighted you. It is best for you to show your anger immediately and let it all out, rather than to try to hold it in or to hold grudges for a long time. You're extremely loyal and defensive of your family, neighborhood, community and culture. 

Jupiter is in 01 Degrees Capricorn. 
You tend to feel that the only results that are worthwhile are the results that are concrete and demonstrable. You distrust abstract solutions and appreciate measurable achievements. An excellent organizer and planner, you are optimistic as well as practical and realistic about what can and what cannot happen. Very responsible, you consider it a personal weakness to be wrong about anything. This makes you appropriately cautious. You are very efficient but you tend to be cool and detached. 

Saturn is in 08 Degrees Virgo. 
Your life must be orderly and practical and full of known and familiar routines in order for you to feel comfortable with yourself. Be careful, however, not to let "order" become the be-all and end-all of your life, or you may become cold, crass and unfeeling. Doing useful, practical things boosts your self- esteem. Abstract concepts and reasoning seem frivolous and a waste of time to you. You are very critical of yourself (and others), indeed at times quite self-deprecating. Try to relax a bit and allow yourself the freedom to fail once in a while. However, you probably won't fail very often because you are such a perfectionist. 

Uranus is in 15 Degrees Pisces. 
You, and most of your peers, are extremely idealistic and want to change society by completely reorienting its highest religious goals and aspirations. Just be careful to make sure that your new goal structures are properly grounded in reality so that they have a chance of being accepted by the majority. 

Neptune is in 20 Degrees Aquarius. 
You, and your entire generation, will idealize and even venerate the ability to remain detached as well as the ability to objectively analyze any given situation. There will be a concerted effort on your part to cure the ills of society as a whole. But be very careful to continue to maintain and protect the rights of individuals in the midst of these potentially far-reaching changes. 

Pluto is in 28 Degrees Sagittarius. 
For your entire generation, society's cherished beliefs and totems will be radically changed. Many traditional concepts will be totally altered, if not completely destroyed. The rights of individuals to pursue their own course in life will be reasserted. 

N. Node is in 29 Degrees Aquarius. 
As long as someone else (or a group or organization) appeals to your intellectual sensibilities, you'll try to ally yourself with them in some way. You may find that you always seem to get involved with many wide-ranging groups -- so much so that you find it difficult to fit them all into your busy schedule. Your many friends and acquaintances provide you with needed stimulation. You're loyal and fair-minded -- you try to spend time equally with all your friends, never concentrating on just one or two for any length of time. Although probably quite conservative yourself, you're attracted to those who are a bit offbeat or eccentric -- you enjoy watching their minds work. 
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I am sending you this on a lovely bright and sunny day. I hope you're enjoying the day and having fun with your friends.

All my love

Daddy.xxx






Wednesday, 14 August 2013

Holiday!

Hello Grace
I hope you're enjoying your summer holidays.
I know that you and Mom went to see Nanna and Grandad recently. I bet you where glad to see her as I know that you both missed each other terribly.
I wonder what else you have been doing, have you been up north to see Evan and Elliott?
I bet they're getting big boys now and probably very noisy as well!

It's hard to believe for me that you're starting the 2nd year of primary school soon, the last year went by so quickly and I hardly got to see you. I hope I get to see you more this year.

I am enjoying my new job at the Photography shop. It can get very busy but I get to meet lots of interesting people and learn about the photography business more. I wonder what you'll be interested in as you grow up?

Anyways, I'll write you again soon.

All my love

I love you and miss you loads.

Don't worry, be happy! :)

Daddyxxxx

Monday, 12 August 2013

The story so far...

Hi Grace.

I have set this blog up so I can share things with you and one day you'll be able to see it yourself.
I have started it off with copies of the first emails I sent you.
I will continue from now to regularly update this blog and include what's going on in my life and so you can when you're older you can see and hopefully understand a bit more about what happened in the times I didn't get to see you.

I love you and miss you lots and loads.

Daddy.xxxxxxxx

7th email

Hello.
I am feeling bad right now as I haven't written to you for months. 
This has been partly due to the fact I found it quite painful to do as I miss you so much and don't know what to write and that recently I had been seeing you swimming on a Thursday and so I thought i would be getting to see you more often.
But those are excuses, the truth is that I had given up. I had let your mothers persistant refusal to let me see you get to me and had started to accept that i might not see you again until you were old enough to come and find me yourself.
I had allowed the guilt that accompanies the interactions with your mom to give up the fight to get access, to allow us to spend time together. 
However I have, over the past 9-12 months been going through the process of going to court to get access. I didn't want to do this to start with as wanted your mom and i to try and work it out between us but it seems after mediation and countless conversations failing to come to a resolution,there is no other option if i want to see you.

This process takes time and money. Time i have got but money i haven't, well not enough to just start the process immediatly, so i have been seeking legal aid and they need a lot of information which i think they have now so hopefully we can move forward and get a resolution. I won't lie, i am frightened of this process as i don't know what the outcome will be, but i just have to trust in god that the right thing will happen and i will get to see you regularly again. That you and i can have a proper relationship like other daddies and daughters, that you can come and stay at my house regularly and we can do fun things, go on holidays and see Nana and Grandad, Libby and Lewis and even redecorate your bedroom!

I hope one day when you're older I can make up for all the time I have missed with you, that i can tell you how sorry i am that that this happened how it did and that how much I love and miss you every day.
Some days i find it really difficult to deal with and i feel very angry, sad and frustrated that i can't just simply be with you and play games with you dance together in the kitchen like we used to, sit and watch a film with you or just listen to you tell me about your life, your friends and about school.

I got a job recently at a camera shop,(I get to play with the expensive cameras which is good ! I hope you enjoy photography as much as me, i'd love to teach you some day) and that means that i wouldn't be able to come and see you swimming, so i have asked your mom to see if i can see you another time, at the moment she doesn't want me to see you again, I don't know why this is as she was OK with it before but I hope that will change. 

So, until i get to see you the next time, then I will keep writing to you and this time i will be more frequent.

I hope you are happy and enjoying your life so far. 

I love and miss you more than anything in the world. I think about you all the time and pray that you're healthy and happy.

Lots of love my precious darling daughter Grace.

PS. I have attached some pictures of me and your Nan and Grandad for you

Daddy.xxx




6th email

Hello Grace

How are you?
I am writing this at home, it's really cold outside with snow predicted soon, so I am nice and comfortable with the fire on, thinking about the fun times we had together. I hope you had a lovely Christmas and Birthday. 
Your mom and I have been speaking recently and hopefully we can arrange a time for us to meet up.
I am looking forward to hearing about what you had for your Birthday and Christmas.

I hope you're still enjoying things at school. They say that school days are the best days of your life. Well I certainly enjoyed my days at Primary school, running around, playing and being with my friends without a care in the world and I hope your days are like that too.
Are you still playing football after school? It would be great to see you play..I wonder if you have inherited my skill and vision! Emoji
I was one of the school teams, the B team, didn't quite make the A team! We did win a few games though and i seem to remember scoring a couple of screamers! I modelled my style on Hot-Shot Hamish who was a character in the Dandy comic that my dad used get for me. His friend at work had a son about my age and would pass on his comics to me! So every few weeks I would get a nice stack of Beano's and  Dandy's which I would read as I had my breakfast before school.
They were happy memories. 
How's your reading? Have you got a favourite book/comic at the moment. I wonder if Scooby Doo is still a favourite of yours?

Well, it's getting late so I will wish you a good night and I hope you have the sweetest of dreams.

I love you Grace

Nighty Night Emoji

Daddy.xxx

5th email

Hello Grace Emoji

I've been thinking about you every day and wonder how you are. I hope that you're happy at school. I heard that you may be moving to a new house soon and I hope that if you are moving that it all goes really smoothly and that you love your new home. 

It's that time of year when Christmas EmojiEmojiand your birthday aren't very far away and I wonder if your getting excited about the present you will get.

I will give you your presents Emoji when I see you next,which hopefully won't be too far away now and we can have a special party EmojiEmoji for you to celebrate Christmas and your birthday together, with lots of all your favourite foods EmojiEmojiEmoji, drinks Emojiand games!EmojiEmoji
I have got a little vegetable Emoji garden now and can't wait for you to see it. There's nothing growing in it yet because it's winter and too cold for things to grow but in a few months it will be ready to grow all kinds of things and you can have your own patch to grow what you like too!

Your bedroom is just how you left it here, when you come to stay next we can go out and choose some new posters, toys, books Emojiand things to put in your room. We could even paint it a new colour if you want to! is pink still your favourite colour?

I love you and miss you and pray that you are happy.

Hope to see you soon.

Daddy.xxxxxxxxxxxx 
Emoji Emoji

4th email

Hi Grace

It’s me again.
I hope you’re having a  good day. It’s very sunny weather today and I was thinking of the times when you and I would play over the park and how much I miss you.

I know we’ll see each other again soon. I went to your school recently as the teachers had asked moms and dads to come and see how their children are getting  on at school.

Your teacher was very pleased with your progress, she said how well you were getting on with the other children and how good at u were enjoying learning. She also said you had joined a football club after school! That’s brilliant! I know you like kicking a ball about and are very good at it, as I remember.

Nanny and Granddad send their love and can’t wait to see you again. They love you and miss you very much.

This is a difficult time for all of us and I just want you to know that none of the problems that your mom and me are having are to do with you. We both love you so very much and really want what’s best for you, which means unfortunately that Mommy doesn’t want me around at the moment, so that means I don’t get to see you but I am doing everything I can to sort this situation out so that I can see you regularly again.

I hope you like the picture of Auntie Lindsay,Libby and me! it was taken at Nannies Birthday dinner. It was a nice evening and would have been perfect if you were with us, we all missed you!

Be happy and enjoy every day. You’re a very special little girl, I am very proud of you and love you completely. 

God Bless and I hope to see you soon.

All my love

Daddy.xxxxxxx 

3rd email

Hi Grace

I hope you're well and having a good day today.

How are you? how's school and swimming?

I have been missing you and hope that we can be together again pretty soon.
In the mean time, I can imagine how you are making new friends and learning new things at school.

I have been taking lots of photographs recently and i can show them to you next time we see each other. I would like to get some new photographs of you as the one on my fireplace is a bit old now, although it's a lovely picture!

Would you like to go to Nanny and Grandad's with me? They are changing jobs soon so Nanny will have more time to play with you when we next visit!

Here's a joke for you: Why do birds fly south in winter? 
                                    Because it's too far to walk!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHAHAHAA.

I look forward to hearing you laughing soon!

All my love

Daddy.xxxxxxxxxx

2nd email..

It's Daddy. Hello
I hope you're well and happy as you read this message. At the time of writing this, I am really missing seeing you and hope it won't be long before we're together again. 
I saw Libby the other day and we went to the library in Walsall. There's a really great section in there which allows you to dress up and put on puppet shows, play lovely big wooden musical instruments and also create all kinds of pictures by touching a computer screen! I know you'd find it fun, so I'll take you there if you want to go and Libby could come too.

How have you been? How's the new school? Have you made any new friends?

There's so many things I would like to talk to you about, I'll have to remember them all when we see each other next time.

Any way, bye bye for now 

Be good and be happy!

All my love

Daddy.xxxx

1st email to my daughter...

Hello Grace

It's Daddy.

I have set up your first email account for you and thought it would be nice to start sending you emails during the times I don't see you to keep you updated on what's happening.
I hope by the time you read this first one that we are spending regular time together and are happy.

At the time of writing this, things are a bit difficult between your mom and me, i guess you know this already but at the moment it seems like things are changing and just for now it's become very difficult to see you. I have called the house and spoken to your mom asking to see and speak to you but she's upset and doesn't want to allow that to happen.

So, in the meantime I just want to say that even though I can't be with you right now, I am always going to be your dad and I will always love you. It won't be long before we are together again and I am really looking forward to finding out what you have been doing, how school is, which new friends you've made and of course really looking forward to just being with you and having fun.

Your mom and I both really love you.

I hope to see you soon

Lot's of love and hugs

Daddy