Hello Grace
I hope you are well and looking forward to Christmas and your birthday. As you are a Capricorn, the sun is in your sign this time of year so you should be feeling a bit more lively and confident, or so they say.
I am writing this today and I am getting ready to head over to Nannies house to spend Christmas with them and also Auntie Lindsay, Owen, Libby, Lewis and Charlie the dog who has now fully recovered from a serious accident he had a few months ago, he ran into a small wire fence whilst running really fast and badly damaged his leg, but like I say, he's fighting fit again now although still slightly nervous about running, as you would expect.
They all miss you too and wish you a Happy Christmas and Birthday.
I am assuming that you and Mommy are going to Cumbria this year for Christmas, I hope you have a great time playing with Evan and Elliott. I will miss you terribly again this year but I feel stronger this time as I have taken action to have time with you. I have applied for a court order, which means that a Judge will have to decide whether or not I am allowed to see you, which sounds crazy I know, as I am your Daddy I should be able to see you but as Mommy and me seem to have difficulties in communicating with each other, then it has to be that a third party will decide what's best.
I just want to say at this point that although your Mom and I have our differences, I still want her to be happy and healthy and don't wish her any ill will, although I do get angry and upset sometimes when I think of how cruel her actions are; depriving me from seeing you and more importantly, you from seeing me.
I want to apologise for not being able to see you and for my part in all this mess, but also look forward to better times and to say to you that I love you and I am still here in my house, your room is still the same as you left it, I will not give up trying to see you regularly and I hope and pray that soon we will be able to see each other again.
I wonder how you feel about all of this, I know you're nearly 6 now and you are bright, intelligent girl. I wonder what you would say to me right now if you were reading this.
Anyways, I wish you all the happiness and fun you can handle over the next few days and I will be thinking of you laughing, opening presents and being silly with the boys and that makes me feel good.
Be happy, have fun
Happy Christmas and a very Happy birthday to you my beautiful daughter.
Love always
Daddy.xxx
